We have had a rough couple of weeks, starting with last Monday. Chris and I went in for a routine ultrasound at 20 weeks of pregnancy and found out our baby no longer had a heartbeat. We were shocked and of course questioning why this had happened. I delivered Isaiah (we didn't know he was a boy until the delivery) early Thursday morning - which was the hardest thing I have ever done or gone through.
We had a beautiful Memorial Service this past Monday.
Our friend, Brandon Donaldson (Internet Campus Pastor for LifeChurch.tv), officiated the service and Trent Austin lead worship along with William Khanagov (violin) and Carrie Belvin (she sang with Trent). Brandon shared some of the things that we had talked to him about a few nights before the service like what we were praying for in this situation (bringing us closer to Him and to each other, and that God would be glorified). He also spoke about how we named Isaiah-we actually had a different boy named picked out but for some reason didn't feel that it was the right name. My mom asked what boy name we had picked out for our daughter if she had been a boy (we didn't know her sex until she was born) and it was Isaiah, which seemed perfect. This past weekend during the series," At The Movies "(a series where spiritual truths are found in blockbuster movies), Pastor Craig spoke about the movie, "We Are Marshall", which focused on the theme of loss. He used the following verses in his message: Isaiah 61: 1-3. It was amazing to hear and read those words - it was just what we needed.
Some of our amazing friends, Erica and Jeff Buchanan, made reservations for us to stay a few nights at a Bed and Breakfast in Stillwater, OK. It was great to get away for a few days and just rest and relax. We are forever grateful to them for this wonderful gift. Chris and I are both back at work and so far are doing okay. I still have my moments (I'm a big time feeler!) but we know that God has a reason for all of this and one day we will see our son in Heaven!
And tomorrow will be a sad, sad day. Our friends John and Breanne Blanchard and their son Malachi will be moving back to Cali. We will miss them so much and of course are already planning a trip to meet them in Vegas in a few months! They have been our best friends for the last year or so and we are so blessed to have them in our lives.